Walking With My Angel

Got to spend a great day with my Angel Megan. It was her eighth birthday. We made her a necklace and then got to go to Look Park for Abbey's birthday party. Megan got to see her cousins and other kids. She got to enjoy the playground. I can't wait to take her to Build a Bear to use her gift card. She'll be making a bear from her to me as well. 

Tokens

I keep getting Tokens from God. Songs, Butterflies. Odd things that some consider coincidences. But they are all signs that God is here for me. This song comes on http://youtu.be/k1jCm_NEdfk

Which is how I feel. It's about some woman walking away from him, and it hurting. It's not about getting her back. I wish others could see that's how I feel. I'm trying to move on. But every time I hear she wants it to be over it hurts. Why wouldn't it?  I love her and always will. She's the mother of my princess. And my best friend. 

Walking And Talking

Sometimes a short walk and a long talk will do wonders for your mind body and soul. Went for a short walk with a good friend and chatted about life and struggles and Guardian Angels. I felt at peace. It's nice to have people helping me on my journey.  We all have our guardian angels. I'm lucky enough to be able to hug some of mine. They'll never know how much I truly appreciate them. Words can't describe it. 

A Great Date With Megan

I had a nice little walk this afternoon. I was in a hurry to get back so I could see Megan. Tuesday is our quick visit. Only a couple of hours. We went out and she played on the swings. Asked a couple of tough questions. We went in and played Sorry and Go Fish, which she won at both, and had a good time. A little bit before she was about to leave I could see her getting upset. She started crying and said she never wanted to leave me. And wanted to see me more. I told her it was ok to cry because we loved each other so much and we missed each other. That was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I started to talk to her about her birthday and that cheered us up. Her smile could lift my heart to the moon. I love this little girl more than anything in the world. It breaks my heart that I can't be with her all the time. Only a couple more days until I can get another big hug. 

Walking The Hills

Walked a new route today. Had a few more hills than I'm used to. Also ended up with some blisters from the new sneakers. It was a beautiful day out. Nice long walk. Almost 4 miles.  Lots of new wooded areas to take pictures of. Think I'll have to do this route again. 

Bittersweet Day

Today has been a bittersweet day. Yesterday with Megan was great. I'm still trying to enjoy that. Today though is the 13th anniversary of when I met Jenn. It should be a happy day. Took a 3.25 mile walk around Easthampton to clear my head. Didn't really work. I really miss her. Some days hurt more than others. Some days I just want to disappear.  It seems special days are really hard on me. 

I just want my family back. More than anything in the world. 

A Day With My Megan

Today I get to spend time with my little princess. Yesterday was nice, but today should be even better. Wish I could have taken more pictures but it wouldn't have been appropriate. I'm all excited. And she is too. 

The day went great. Went to Look Park for a bit. Got to snuggle and watch Spongebob like we used to. Found a couple of Four Leaf Clovers. Wish it didn't have to end.  Can't wait until Tuesday when we can see each other again. 

Walking To My Munchkin

Today is a great day. I get to see my little princess. It's been too long. I love her so much. I'm so excited that I can't sit still. It's almost like Christmas Morning. 

I can't wait until I can take her on some of my walks. I think she'd like Look Park. There's so much to see and do. It's become one of my favorite places to go. 

I also just found out I have a new job starting soon. I'm super excited about that. I hate sitting around waiting for things to do. 

A Walk Into the Unknown

Sometimes taking a walk into the unknown can lead to great things. I mean that both as a metaphor and in real life. I kept walking past a sign during my walks. One day I finally decided to check out the footpath the sign led to. It led to a beautiful area with a small brook that I had known was there since I was a kid. I never went there until that day. I had been missing out on something beautiful. 

In my life I never knew I liked photography. I never knew I enjoyed walking. I never knew I enjoyed nature this much. This unknown has brought me some joy and something beautiful to share with my daughter Megan. 

Walking and Thinking

Some times I just need an escape. Taking walks and seeing the beauty around me helps me clear my head. I think about all the good things in my life, and even some of the things I'd like to change. I've discovered I like photography. Especially pictures of mountains and the sky. It helps me feel at peace. I feel better inside, and it calms my nerves.