Walking on Main St.

Today was a beautiful day. I went out for a walk around Easthampton. Walked through "downtown" and back. About 3.75 miles. Along the way I just kept thinking about Megan and her birthday party this coming Saturday. I wish the whole family could be there. Maybe some day. I want to get her another birthday present. I have a good idea. You'll have to wait to find out.  Also I got to see things that mean a lot to me. Signs of good things to come. I can't wait until things are good again. It's coming slowly but surely. 

Walking With My Angel

Got to spend a great day with my Angel Megan. It was her eighth birthday. We made her a necklace and then got to go to Look Park for Abbey's birthday party. Megan got to see her cousins and other kids. She got to enjoy the playground. I can't wait to take her to Build a Bear to use her gift card. She'll be making a bear from her to me as well. 

Tokens

I keep getting Tokens from God. Songs, Butterflies. Odd things that some consider coincidences. But they are all signs that God is here for me. This song comes on http://youtu.be/k1jCm_NEdfk

Which is how I feel. It's about some woman walking away from him, and it hurting. It's not about getting her back. I wish others could see that's how I feel. I'm trying to move on. But every time I hear she wants it to be over it hurts. Why wouldn't it?  I love her and always will. She's the mother of my princess. And my best friend. 

Walking And Talking

Sometimes a short walk and a long talk will do wonders for your mind body and soul. Went for a short walk with a good friend and chatted about life and struggles and Guardian Angels. I felt at peace. It's nice to have people helping me on my journey.  We all have our guardian angels. I'm lucky enough to be able to hug some of mine. They'll never know how much I truly appreciate them. Words can't describe it. 

A Great Date With Megan

I had a nice little walk this afternoon. I was in a hurry to get back so I could see Megan. Tuesday is our quick visit. Only a couple of hours. We went out and she played on the swings. Asked a couple of tough questions. We went in and played Sorry and Go Fish, which she won at both, and had a good time. A little bit before she was about to leave I could see her getting upset. She started crying and said she never wanted to leave me. And wanted to see me more. I told her it was ok to cry because we loved each other so much and we missed each other. That was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I started to talk to her about her birthday and that cheered us up. Her smile could lift my heart to the moon. I love this little girl more than anything in the world. It breaks my heart that I can't be with her all the time. Only a couple more days until I can get another big hug. 

Walking The Hills

Walked a new route today. Had a few more hills than I'm used to. Also ended up with some blisters from the new sneakers. It was a beautiful day out. Nice long walk. Almost 4 miles.  Lots of new wooded areas to take pictures of. Think I'll have to do this route again. 

Bittersweet Day

Today has been a bittersweet day. Yesterday with Megan was great. I'm still trying to enjoy that. Today though is the 13th anniversary of when I met Jenn. It should be a happy day. Took a 3.25 mile walk around Easthampton to clear my head. Didn't really work. I really miss her. Some days hurt more than others. Some days I just want to disappear.  It seems special days are really hard on me. 

I just want my family back. More than anything in the world.